Until "NEXT" time...

Let's recap this past week and this week...

This past Thursday thru Sunday I got to spend with my best friend... MY SISSIE!!!
It was much needed and ended way to fast... Like most get aways.
She is such a good friend. I love my big sis...
We did nothing but hang out in our pajamas and go to walmart and watch movies (you all know how much I LOVE THEEE WALMART ha). And we got manicures and pedicure and NOW I have cute purple toes and fingers! Thanks to my sister!!!


I came back from her house with some sort of stupid sinus nasty-ness.
Andddd two cute new Alice and Wonderland mugs! Yaya. I most certainly like the mugs much better than sinus pooh!

And then

Last night was good!!!
IT was much needed...
Brad had his first "show" as a singer... It was cute watching him up there... He did great, sounded great... (Well at least that is what I thought)
I haven't been to a "show"(concert-music) IN FOREVER it seems.
I was a bit on edge with the whole what if some dumb ass comes from behind and decides to push me and everyone else and accidentally hit the back of my head..?


It was great to just stand and watch and listen... I used to be at shows three days a week... Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays... I loved music. I still do it just seems that I haven't had a real chance to actually go.

Next week Brad and I are going to see JONSI! It's the lead singer from Sigur ros(s) side band! I am soo excited about this! This was my birthday present back in December from Bradley... It seems like that was ages ago but well worth the wait!
I am very excited. Ugghhh he is so talented and amazing to watch. Those dang Icelandic people and their goodness!


As of lately not a whole lot has changed in life... Just waiting.
Waiting on the doctors to review all of my medical records at The Chiari Institute in New York and from there (after they are done reviewing) I will get to make my appointment and BE HAPPY!!!
I am sooo so sooo soo very excited beyond words to meet with these doctors... They are like... Well... The ying to the yang in CHIARI world. (That means they know their shit!)

I had a doctors appointment last night I was taught how to give myself shots... This was interesting and to say the least I will not be giving myself these shots on my own... Mr. Bradley will. I almost passed out when she told me to grab the fat on my booty and to stick in the needle. I almost passed out just holding this 2inch long needle. YIKES... THEN when she told me to stick it in I almost cried I was sweating with fear... That's when I told her I should watch at least this time so I know how fast to go... Yeah and NO WAY am I doing that. I almost passed out when she jabbed the dang thing in there...Was it painful heck no. It was the fear of watching. YUCK.

So yet another thing in life I have accomplished that I never thought was coming.
That seems to be happening a lot these days...
I am pretty sick of this medical crap. And this medical world. I want to be a kid again and forget about all this... But I don't see that happening anytime soon. So Felicia you just gotta suck it up...



There is way to much flowing through this heart and mind of mine.


I keep thinking maybe change will "change" this empty shit feel. Some examples. Vacation, a new pair of shoes, a new town, a new friend or something of that sort will make me happy all over again. But I have come to the realization that those are all temporary fixes. Man I just have to suck it up and take all these punches I am being dealt. I like to think of myself as a tough chick. But honestly inside I am a broken mess. Spiritually, mentally and health wise.


Until NEXT TIME...

 





::Giving way to that familiar ill::