He can't heal what you won't reveal or cleanse what you won't confess.
Think about it.

Repeating wrong behaviors guarantees continued failure.




These lyrics and this song have been on my heart a lot lately...
It amazes me how true and honest Andy Hull is about his journey and struggles with his faith in God and beliefs! He writes it and sings it so well IN ALL of his music!

Manchester Orchestra... The River... :)

I will fight the spirit

With a sword in my side

She found a way out

Crack my rib

Wait to die

I think I know YOU best when I sleep

I think I know everything

Me and my brothers

We have tongues sharp as knives

I found a way out

Make a noise, close your eyes

I think I talk to YOU best when I sing

I sing about almost everything

Oh GOD I need it

So let me see AGAIN

Take me to the river
And let me see AGAIN

Oh my GOD

Let me see AGAIN

Oh my GOD

Let me see AGAIN

Let me see AGAIN

Grace taught her daughter

Daily on

GOD how I feel it

Fed her pride to YOUR feet

I'm gonna leave YOU the first chance I get

Oh GOD I am sorry

Well I was wrong again

Take me to the river

And make me SING AGAIN

Oh my GOD

Make me clean AGAIN

And oh my GOD

Let me see AGAIN

This song is me. This song explains my journey so well. It's how much I ask and scream and cry out to GOD and tell him to please help me please LOVE me please show me YOUR way...

The verse, "I'm gonna leave YOU the first chance I get" REALLY speaks to me... I feel like so many times GOD is working wonders in my life and I do just this thing... Leave him the first chance I get... I cry everytime I hear that verse... Its so moving... 

Listen to this song! Its amazing! I cry EVERYTIME I watch it. He speaks to me in so many ways through this song!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GY4-NawPgbs

 

 

Last night I talked to a realllllly really GOOD old friend. Its been quite a few years and it was over faacebook IM but he told me so much of what I really needed to HEAR!... Here is what the Spirit was wanting him to share with me.

 

-“Therefore, behold, I will hedge up your way with thorns, And wall her in, So that she cannot find her paths. She will chase her lovers, But not overtake them; Yes, she will seek them, but not find them.
(Hosea 2:6–7)

-I just felt the Lord saying He's been hedging ME in. You have sought other lovers and He's been after you and now He's calling you to return to His with everything. I fell like the pain you're feeling He wants to take and show you He's so committed to you but He wants to show you the fire in His eyes! He wants to show you He's jealous for your heart to be fully given to Him.

-He said I just feel like the Lord in His love and mercy is saying, "I have seen you. You have known. I still want you. I just want it all now. Just give into me and I'll talk care of you." I just feel like He's after it all. I hope this is encouraging. I just feel the Lord strong right now and I feel His heart strong for you. He's so for you. He just wants the other lovers to go and it's for your good He has been hedging you in to where you would say I have to go back to Him. It's been horrible. But it's really His mercy to bring you to that place of full devotion.

 

(...I hope this is all making sense. I just feel the Holy Spirit right now so I'm just stepping out.) Ryan.

THAT MADE MY NIGHT!
:)
Thanks Ryan... Your a special dude and I love you!
Even though I can only remember you as 16 forever and ALWAYS





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It amazes me how someone could share so much about me to me through GOD. Mmm beauty!
SO much BEAUTY!

::Giving way to that familiar ill::