Our actions are what set things in motion!

This mornings devotional reallllly really hit the spot!

One of the things that it said that I really enjoyed was... When you get so used to living with your problems and hang-ups you will start to lose your desire to overcome them, the enemy has you right where he wants you.
 
After everything that I have been through this past year and not to mention all that is new this week that's going on with my doggie. The other day after we got home from the emergency vet it was 2 am or later I don't even remember exactly but I got out of the car and said... "I am ready... Shoot me, rob me... What's next"?

My main reason for sharing this is that I feel I am ready for more punches to get thrown at me and I am not asking-begging God to help me and to help these things that are being thrown at me to STOP... I am just taking these "punches' and thinking well God has a plan with it, God has a BIGGER PLAN with it... But after reading todays devotion I thought holyyyy crap... I realllly need to step back and ask GOD to help me and take me by the hand. I really need to PRAY for all of this to not only have a purpose but to STOP. I just keep getting deeper and deeper in a mess that I feel like I have given up to Him but at the same time I feel that I am letting the evil take me over and win.
I need to fight.
AND I WILL FIGHT.

On to the other stuff... Let's just say thank GOD for sending me people in my life that have helped me so much physically, financially and much much more etc. love,joy all that.
Yesterday I had a client that I know was sent to me on that very day to show me that I am loved and cared about. She was so sweet and I am so thankful for her blessing... And not to mention I am thankful for each and everyone of you for the love and joy and blessings and prayer and hope that you have shined on me! :)
Right now times are super duper rough but hey... Thank GOD for plastic and I mean credit cards... Without it I don't know what we would be doing about Bella and all the thousands she has cost us within the past few days...

Right now I need to remember the truth and stay close to the light.
As for how I am feeling these day... I am alright. Not great. Not horrible just alright...
But I am content being alright...


I have an amazing journey ahead of me and I am so ready to take it on. More surgeries who cares... I am ready for the HUGE prize at the end... It could never come until the end until I am dead and gone BUT I WILL TOTALLY TAKE THAT...


Cool thought for today...
Our actions are what set things in motion... :)




::Giving way to that familiar ill::